Hello, my name is...

Hello, my name is Marya and I'm a sugar addict. Disclaimer: I don't mean any harm or disservice to those suffering from addictions of drugs or alcohol. I realize that many would not even think of sugar as an addiction, but people can be so-called addicted to food, right? It just so happens that I think sugar is a rather insidious food product and truly does create an addictive cycle in the body and, at least in me, addictive type behavior. But I realize it is not like tobacco or heroin.
So, I have a friend who decided to go on the Fat Flush Plan. It sounds like some fad diet, and it's goal in part is to help you lose weight, but it's also a bit of a detox plan as well. It's not called FLUSH for nothin', ya know. It's spring, I ate pretty crappy this winter (hello - Girl Scout Cookies???) and I figured it would be nice to lose a couple of pounds before swimsuit season. Not coincidentally this falls during the month of Eating for the Living Compassionately program. We're studying how food and eating affect how we feel and how we treat others.
So here I am on this plan. I buy the book, read and kind of prep myself. Except my version of "prepping" is to pay really close attention to all the things I'm eating that I won't eat on the plan. The 1st 2 weeks are pretty intense and you cut out all foods that tend to elicit sensitivities or allergic reactions (dairy, wheat, SUGAR, etc.) Which pretty much means any carb that doesn't come from a non starchy vegetable (no potatoes even). Just lots of water, protein and veggies and fruits.
So I'm at Target and I buy a HEATH bar. Haven't bought one in probably 10 years but in the checkout had this thought: "might as well, won't be able to eat THIS after tomorrow." What the heck is that? Talk about rationalizing! Did the same with scones and cereal. It was then I realized my addictive behavior:

Wake up - eat! gotta have my cereal!!!
Coffee, with cream (what no sugar??)
mid-morning snack - scone, muffin, bagel, toast, anything with carbs and sugar
Lunch - whatever the kids don't eat
after lunch - "I just need a bite of something sweet - anything!"
Scrounge through kids treat bag for year old, previously melted Kit-Kat, eat it then decide it was really horrible and not worth it.
mid-afternoon snack - see morning snack
Dinner - nice well balanced meal
before bed snack - cereal.

It was the first thing I did when I woke up. The last thing I did before going to bed. Between every meal and that nagging, gotta have a bite thing, after even the decent meals I ate. Let's just say, the first day of Fat Flush was hell and by the end of the day my head was throbbing and I was super crabby. Sounds like withdrawal to me?